Saturday, July 21, 2018

Deep Down I Know I am Playing It Small

visibility: the quality or state of being visible

Recently, I've been working with showing up more for my life and living in the truest way I know how. I am noticing how often I have ignored my own feelings of truth so as not to be abandoned by those I care for and because it doesn't feel safe most of the time in a world of conformity, to be the truest version of myself. Extremely long story short: I have built a life around not upsetting the apple cart.

And as scary as it can feel sometimes, the discomfort I am beginning to feel when I conceal and stuff down my uniqueness is becoming much harder to ignore.

Part of the shift in consciousness happening for me (and I believe many others) is asking me to show up in my vulnerable truth. I feel it in my bones....this is where true power is grown.

A large piece of my work this life is to become more visible. Not in an egoic way, but in a medicinal way. I have spent my life hiding out, playing the supporting role and staying small to feel a sense of safety. It's time to throw off my cloak of invisibility!

So here we go. I am starting to make some videos about showing up, process art, dealing with fear....etc.

Here's the latest posted just this week on fear. My friend Leela and I chatted a bit about working with fear.

And another I did with friend and mentor Sarah Oblinger after a studio session


Friday, July 13, 2018

Calling All Indigos, Starseeds, Starchildren, Wanderers, Seekers, Misfits And Mystics.

It's been awhile since I've posted here. Much is changing for me internally and in how I meet the world in the middle of ever-changing, sometimes chaotic energies swirling around. 

And in the midst of the chaos, a deep feeling that we are in the beginning stages of a grand shift. An evolution asking us to move, create and operate from a more heart-centered, soul-based place.

The shifting times seem to be delivering realizations, body sensations, new sensitivities and a feeling of isolation for many of us. I feel part of what is mine to do right now is provide a safe and supportive environment for anyone feeling this shift in consciousness - a sacred space in which to share and be seen and heard. Plus, in this safe space unique tools to help cultivate presence and groundedness for everyday life can be discovered! 

I will still be offering my standard process art facilitation in person and online. However, I will also be offering active listening and heart - based questioning without process art.

Whatever we call ourselves - Indigos, Starseeds, Starchildren, Wanderers, Seekers, Pioneers, Misfits or Mystics....there IS a place for us, right here where we stand. And most importantly, you are not alone.

If what I am writing resonates for you in any way...please reach out and contact me HERE. I would love to hear from you!

ALSO... if you are in the Kansas City area, I have started a Paradigm Shift Support Group via Meet Up. We gather twice a month and share how we are doing and offer support for one another. It has been one of the most nourishing things I have done for myself in a long time. All are welcome and it's free!

Discover more details HERE

Sunday, February 11, 2018

Where You'll Find Me

As I continue to pare down my time spent on the computer, the bulk of my writing and art making can be found in The Walkabout. I could not do this deep creative exploration without this beautiful community of souls who are dedicated to doing the same. 

Unraveling to my core with art, is my absolute passion....and I won't lie, it can be hard sometimes. But way more interesting and fulfilling than living someone else's version of me.

A unique and important part of The Walkabout, is the ongoing correspondence Sarah Oblinger and I have with one other. We commit to being real, vulnerable and open using art, movement and words to meet our daily lives as they naturally unfold. 

Until now, it's been exclusively for Walkabout participants. However, because of the profound shifts we've been feeling in our own lives while working this program, we’ve decided to publicly share our correspondence on Creative Nectar's blog

Our letters are for any of you on your own self discovery journey. I hope you will follow along – with a knowing, that you are not alone. Please meet us online HERE every 1st and 10th of the month, I'd love you to be a part of this unfolding!

Deep Exploration - What is Right and Real For ME

 I've been cutting way down on my computer time - it's painful to my body and I am all about self care lately. However, I wanted to put down a few words here, maybe as a "mile marker" to reference later, in case I need it.

My curiosity is still fed by exploring the cracks and crevices housed within, as I slowly uncover  glints of my true nature. Who am I without some of my stories - especially the deeply rooted negative ones? What am I without the masks I wear to fit in and stay protected in the world. What happens when I begin to examine my beliefs?

What I've discovered so far has been surprising as I glimpse a new way of moving and living. Steering myself away from the main stream has helped me to discover what is right and real, for me. I listen to my body for clues about what is working and not working. I check in with my feelings to learn more about each moment.

Art is helping. Community is crucial. There is a complete overhaul happening, slowly and at my own  pace.Trusting myself, allowing my heart to crack open, loving deeply, re-imagining my stories, examining my beliefs, feeling into what's next.....WOW. 

Buckle Up Buttercup! Here we go...............................