Monday, August 13, 2018

Why I Write About My Messy Truth

Sometimes, I will write about my wounding because right in the middle of it. Right there where I my POWER. 

I know it can be hard to witness sometimes. It might feel like too much and it may even touch a nerve in you. Good. Let it touch that nerve. Let that discomfort inform you. Noticing can lead to greater awareness.

I'd like to say I am healing....but I don't know if that's the most accurate way to describe what is happening. I actually feel as if I am calling broken shards of myself back home. Letting them know the coast is clear and it's safe to return. This is my journey to embodied wholeness.

Why do I feel the need to share this on the internet? I am guessing there is more than one reason.

 One reason is probably because I have lived most of my life wanting to stay small and invisible - if you are small and invisible you don't rock the boat and you aren't abandoned. As I begin to call these bits of myself back home and recover my medicine is to allow myself to be truly seen and heard. 

I also feel that sharing my messy truth could help others. PERHAPS...if someone discovered here that this shy, unassuming good girl (who spent the majority of her life looking outside of herself for identity, love and truth) was finding the courage to uncover her authenticity, then maybe they could too.

And maybe I share this stuff online because I believe it's important for us to tell our story - not all the gory details and not as a way to stay stuck in the middle,
 but the good bits that were tough to get through, yet gifted us with the most growth and power.

It's permission giving to be vulnerable. It bonds us to be vulnerable. It is human. It is sorely needed. It is DIVINE.

So here I am, in all my imperfect glory. Working on wholeness. Practicing the art of living. Loving myself one piece at a time.

 Please do not feel you need to fix me or that I write of my woundedness to engage your sympathy. This is me practicing my alchemy. 

Sometimes, I will write about my wounding because right in the middle of it. Right there where I my POWER. 

Friday, July 27, 2018

We Are Sacred Alchemists

I don't know about you, but for me, this year has been an INTENSE one. And when I say intense....I mean so chock full of emotionally charged situations  (good and bad) that it's hard to keep track of them all. The only thing to do is be with the feelings, transmute what I can and move onto the next - AKA going with the flow.

I am definitely getting the opportunity to use all the tools in my Inner Peace Toolbox! So much is changing for me....and I know it's not just me. Energetically, something is happening to many of us.

The time has come for us ALL to stop playing small. We humans are magic. There is something we hold within that gives us the ability to rise above and turn shit into gold. We are sacred alchemists. 

 It's time to embody our Divinity. As many of us as possible. You know it if you are being called. You feel a pull to know more of this all powerful creature that dwells inside you. Things that used to do it for you no longer have that zing. You are craving more because this knowing of the heart is what we do best, given the chance. Our magic lives here.


Stephanie Gray is a writer, artist, process arts facilitator and creative self–discoverist.

Her main focus is working with people as they make their way through life transitions by providing suggestions on how to stay connected to self during shifting times. Stephanie combines art making, creative writing, active listening, heart-based questioning and over 20 years of her own self-discovery practice to assist individuals in living a more authentic life, cultivating awareness of their sacred selves.

Stephanie facilitates creative self-discovery in person from her home  -  Inside Out Studio - and online with folks all over the globe (The Walkabout and HeART Journaling).

Stephanie is co-founder of Creative Nectar Studio

Saturday, July 21, 2018

Deep Down I Know I am Playing It Small

visibility: the quality or state of being visible

Recently, I've been working with showing up more for my life and living in the truest way I know how. I am noticing how often I have ignored my own feelings of truth so as not to be abandoned by those I care for and because it doesn't feel safe most of the time in a world of conformity, to be the truest version of myself. Extremely long story short: I have built a life around not upsetting the apple cart.

And as scary as it can feel sometimes, the discomfort I am beginning to feel when I conceal and stuff down my uniqueness is becoming much harder to ignore.

Part of the shift in consciousness happening for me (and I believe many others) is asking me to show up in my vulnerable truth. I feel it in my bones....this is where true power is grown.

A large piece of my work this life is to become more visible. Not in an egoic way, but in a medicinal way. I have spent my life hiding out, playing the supporting role and staying small to feel a sense of safety. It's time to throw off my cloak of invisibility!

So here we go. I am starting to make some videos about showing up, process art, dealing with fear....etc.

Here's the latest posted just this week on fear. My friend Leela and I chatted a bit about working with fear.

And another I did with friend and mentor Sarah Oblinger after a studio session


Friday, July 13, 2018

Calling All Indigos, Starseeds, Starchildren, Wanderers, Seekers, Misfits And Mystics.

It's been awhile since I've posted here. Much is changing for me internally and in how I meet the world in the middle of ever-changing, sometimes chaotic energies swirling around. 

And in the midst of the chaos, a deep feeling that we are in the beginning stages of a grand shift. An evolution asking us to move, create and operate from a more heart-centered, soul-based place.

The shifting times seem to be delivering realizations, body sensations, new sensitivities and a feeling of isolation for many of us. I feel part of what is mine to do right now is provide a safe and supportive environment for anyone feeling this shift in consciousness - a sacred space in which to share and be seen and heard. Plus, in this safe space unique tools to help cultivate presence and groundedness for everyday life can be discovered! 

I will still be offering my standard process art facilitation in person and online. However, I will also be offering active listening and heart - based questioning without process art.

Whatever we call ourselves - Indigos, Starseeds, Starchildren, Wanderers, Seekers, Pioneers, Misfits or Mystics....there IS a place for us, right here where we stand. And most importantly, you are not alone.

If what I am writing resonates for you in any way...please reach out and contact me HERE. I would love to hear from you!

ALSO... if you are in the Kansas City area, I have started a Paradigm Shift Support Group via Meet Up. We gather twice a month and share how we are doing and offer support for one another. It has been one of the most nourishing things I have done for myself in a long time. All are welcome and it's free!

Discover more details HERE