Saturday, July 21, 2018

Deep Down I Know I am Playing It Small



visibility: the quality or state of being visible

Recently, I've been working with showing up more for my life and living in the truest way I know how. I am noticing how often I have ignored my own feelings of truth so as not to be abandoned by those I care for and because it doesn't feel safe most of the time in a world of conformity, to be the truest version of myself. Extremely long story short: I have built a life around not upsetting the apple cart.

And as scary as it can feel sometimes, the discomfort I am beginning to feel when I conceal and stuff down my uniqueness is becoming much harder to ignore.

Part of the shift in consciousness happening for me (and I believe many others) is asking me to show up in my vulnerable truth. I feel it in my bones....this is where true power is grown.

A large piece of my work this life is to become more visible. Not in an egoic way, but in a medicinal way. I have spent my life hiding out, playing the supporting role and staying small to feel a sense of safety. It's time to throw off my cloak of invisibility!

So here we go. I am starting to make some videos about showing up, process art, dealing with fear....etc.

Here's the latest posted just this week on fear. My friend Leela and I chatted a bit about working with fear.



And another I did with friend and mentor Sarah Oblinger after a studio session




Yikes!


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