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An Open Letter To Those Who Would Diminish My Fire







To whoever seeks to diminish my flame - consciously, unconsciously, maliciously or with the best of intentions,

Thank you for your attention. Thank you for wishing me well and trying to save me or put me on the right path. Thanks also to those with an envious nature and hidden resentment, who choose to shoot invisible beams of meanness my way. Thank you, as this adds fuel to my fire...... and by the way, I am just fine.

 My way may not look like yours. My way may look like nothing at all. My way, may even look as if I am lost or floundering, I assure you this is not the case.

MY life is precious, encompassing the good and the bad. The hard parts are welcome just as the fun and easy stuff are. My life is plainly ornate, small in the biggest of ways and full in its sparsity. My life sparkles from the inside out and it suits me.

 I have days when I feel weak and voiceless....I embrace them for I know they will come and go. I have days I feel on top of the world and that I am the luckiest woman alive, these are a bit easier to embrace, they will also come and go.

 I have finally figured out that ALL of my life has purpose and I will no longer try to sit on the things that I feel ashamed of or that feel uncomfortable. I will not rise above them, pray over them or seek to destroy them. I will allow them to teach me something I need to know. I will acknowledge they are there for a reason. I will allow it All to unfold in the most sacred of ways at my cold and eager feet.

 I have spent years cultivating the flame you seek to cover with your well meaning dirt. You will fail. I am no longer a woman who can be broken and molded. I am a woman on fire and I have things to say.

Namaste,

Stephanie

Comments

sach dharm said…
Thank You Stephanie, I have felt this way many times and I even have written and painted my way through the process of embracing own HEART fueled by those that choose to ignore the fact that I too am human. I am in awe of your HEART and am inspired by your vulnerability of living life fully and Spirited.
You are the definition to my blessing I say daily.... May we align the truth in our hearts with divine grace.

I look forward for all that you have to teach in the coming year.

Light of love and Divine grace,
Karen
stephanie said…
Thank you sweet Karen. May we all align to the truth in our hearts with Divine grace (beautiful). Sending so much gratitude and love your way.
Steph
Deborah said…
Thank you Stephanie! Tears of release and crazy deep joy as I read this!! So many times I have tried to fix me to make myself tolerable. Credible. Acceptable. Crushing my heart in the process ... the sword against myself has been laid down this past year. I am unquenchable ♡♡♡
stephanie said…
Thank you Deborah. I love that you are laying down your sword. The internal battle has been going on way too long for me as well. Here's to our knowing there is NOTHING to fix and to our burning, beautiful selves!

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