Pain, My Shadow and the Color Pink

I painted my pain Friday in the studio and it was amazing. In process painting you paint EXACTLY where you are in the moment and in that moment I was really hurting. I chose colors that felt like the pain.....gray, then a sort of puke color and then a swampy green. Dripping and oozing down the page, it mirrored the dense, tightly compacted discomfort I was experiencing.

I decided to really check out what was behind the physical sensations, and there is was....all my shadow stuff. "not good enough", "loser" SO MUCH GRIEF and sadness. It felt clogged, and stagnant.

I continued to paint and realized the gray drips were becoming shadow figures - parts of me made up of shame, abandonment and invisibility that don't get much attention. Inside the shadows I painted the words that were bubbling to the surface and eventually, the heaviness lifted. I felt profound compassion for my shadows and I realized I no longer wanted to paint the pain....it was starting to dissipate and I wanted to paint a loving pink color around my shadows.

The minute I began to move with the pink, I felt as if a warm blanket was lovingly wrapped around me and my dark figures. It was pure comfort and a true nurturing that can only be found from within. The best part of all? I was in good company. Two women"Souldiers" were painting through their own adventure at the same time. We worked together as we worked alone.

I can't imagine my life without this practice and I am grateful.

Internal Guidance - Feeling Into The New Paradigm

I feel like I’ve just finished a very intense and in depth master class. If the course had a title it would probably be something like, “Adapting To The New Paradigm - Reading Your Energy To Know What’s Working” . It’s been a totally immersive, 8 week lesson that started with looking at how much money my husband and I have and allowing the number to freak us the fuck out. So much so, that the only alternative we felt we had was to sell our home. The minute we decided this, it felt unbelievably sad and we both experienced a huge amount of grief around the idea of letting this “family member” go. After we worked through the grief, we set about engaging in a string of contract signing with several companies and individuals who wanted to buy our house. It was excruciating and confusing to watch each deal that we'd make, magically dissolve into big piles of steamy horse excrement. All the while, each step we took was bizarrely out of sync with our normal way of being in the world. O

Creating From The Inside Out

Hello and welcome! I'm Stephanie and I am a Creative Transformation Guide, intuitive artist and writer. I have spent almost 3 decades practicing process art and I am passionate about using the creative process to assist others in finding their own wisdom and power so that they may live a more conscious and connected life, from the inside out. I believe now more than ever as we navigate many global (and personal) paradigm shifts, that our creativity is vital and can be used as a tool to tap into our most authentic/Divine self. Every single one of us is born with a creative spark nestled within. That doesn't mean we will all be artists selling our creations in galleries or writing novels. What is does mean is we ALL have the capability to create. WE ARE CREATORS AND ARE MORE POWERFUL THAN WE KNOW. Something happens when we decide to create just for the sake of creating. Because there is no pressure to make something pretty or have it mean anything, the brain gets busy play

Redbubble Shop

I've just opened a Redbubble shop! This has been something I resisted for a LONG time. But now it feels like this is just what happens next. It feels scary and vulnerable and totally right. A few of the designs are what I would consider channeled in that I didn't have much of a hand it what came out and also, they because they are infused with light, which is totally new for me. And there are some images from my altered books that were all about expressing what I was feeling in the moment. I would love it if you took a few minutes to check it out!

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